εїз I am STRONGER and BETTER now εїз

I've been through a lot of problems in my life. Whether it concerns about my family, friends, my studies, and the like. But, there was this UNFORGETTABLE one that i don't want to remember nor to be talked about, because it STILL HURTS. It really does. = ((

It was been a year and 6 months since that happened. I was in my junior year, when i found out that the ones i used to call FRiENDS betrayed me all along. I was trying not to think about that, because they let me feel that we are okay, but then again, WE ARE NOT OKAY.

A neighbor of mine named APRIL WAS one of my friends since first year. I really never thought that SHE would somehow betrayed me. When i ran a position in our school, i was expecting for their support, because they're my FRiENDS. But nonetheless, it was a MiSTAKE. A friend told me that, while i'm doing a campaign for myself and for my party, she was doing the same thing AGAiNST me. All of them didn't vote for me except for one --- Reymart. He had been my partner in Dance Troupe and also one of our group. And that HURTS. I have no idea why they've done that thing to me. I was murmuring to myself, "i don't care if i win or not, all i want is for them to TRUST me, because they are my friends. =((". It hurts so much, because i TRUST THEM that much.

I didn't mention to them that i knew about it, I just let them feel it. I was starting not to go home together with them. I was not hanging-out with them and the like. It was not what i used to do, but i just have to. I need to!

Lots of unexpected things happened after that, it didn't only affect my studies, it affected me as a WHOLE. Junior year was done, and here comes the SENiOR. My family suggested that i should transfer, because they could see that i'm not yet over with that. Tears were falling every night, and so much questions were asked, and so much things were already in doubt. But, i told myself, "if i'm going to transfer, they might think that i'm WEAK, and that i'm a LOSER." A classmate told me once, "nic, wag ka mag-transfer. ipakita mo sa kanila na pinagbigyan mo lang sila." My former and present teachers went at our house, saying and stopping me from transferring. I never expected that. ;) "So, I will not transfer and let them ruin my HS life. I won't transfer and let them see, that i'm better and stronger without their presence." And so, it happened. It was really difficult for me to adjust, but i made it --- step by step.

Sherwie told me once that she idolized me for doing such difficult decision. She never thought that i'm that strong. Yeah right, even me, i never thought that i'm that strong. It's just that, i just have to be strong, and that's the only choice i have. = ))

And one more thing, i was glad that it happened on the other side. Because, i knew that HE is always there for me. HE helped me overcame this struggle. HE let me found my self. HE helped my family to be intact. HE let me learned from my mistakes. HE took away the pains that i felt, and exchanged these with HIS LOVE. HE let me feel that I WAS NOT ALONE. = ))


"You just have to live your life, not caring what they think. And, shake off the drama, and just prove to them that you're BETTER that they think you are." = ))